Working Towards Livable Life

Disclaimer: I have been drinking


I have been working so hard to live the way I want to, I have been working daily, weekly and monthly to be the person that I want to be. To live the life I want to live, even if I don't know specifically what that is. I have wants that go through my head, the want to be healthy, exercise, do all the things that everyone thinks is "what you should do". Though the wants are there I have no immediate drive to do them, and for me to do something about it that drive needs to foster inside until I can't ignore it anymore. I bought an Ipod tonight so I could go for walks and finally get the exercise my body craves. Who knows what will develop in the months to come? I decided a long time ago that a little bit of exercise is better than none so until my mind is satisfied with this exercise I am going to run with it.

I acknowledge my emotional connection to Arbonne, I understand that when someone says no I feel it is a personal assault. I am getting so much better though, better at being strong, better at separating Arbonne from my personal life. Though I know I will never be able to fully separate the two, because this is who I am and that emotional person is someone I have become pretty fond of.

I'm happy right now, yes I have my bad days but I am happy with the fact that I can choose my life. I can choose what I do every day and how much I work. I am able to have the alone time I need to be a better person, friend, relative and girlfriend.

I know that in the days to come I will be stressed, I will have bad days where I want to throw in the towel. I will be scared of not having enough money and of not being the perfect daughter, friend and girlfriend. I will be upset because I didn't reach the goals I set. Though this is the case and though I am working on it, I think I will be okay, I think (today) that the world is an okay place.