The Need to Ramble

I warn you now, this post may not make any sense, may not have any structure and is guaranteed to jump from topic to topic. I have a lot on my mind and feel like this may be the best way to get things organized.

Now as I stare at the page I can't seem to make the words flow the way I think they should. I have been having problems sleeping, not from awful anxiety like before but with excitement surrounding Arbonne. I think about how to make more contacts, work out what I am going to say to potential business builders, think about who I am going to sell product to, I can't stop thinking about it. Then I don't sleep well. end up sleeping in too late and feel sluggish in the morning. During the day I have a block, I think its fear, fear that I will make it through all of my contacts and not furthered my business in anyway.

I worry about money, worry about not being able to pay my bills and having to go get another job. I don't want to do that, I don't want to have to go back to answering to someone else. I love working my business and having the freedom that Arbonne gives me. I just want the money to equal the amount of effort I feel I put in. I think its because I have so much heart in this business, so much of myself. I know I shouldn't feel so emotional about business but I am a woman and telling me not to be emotional is like telling me not to breathe.

I have a strange way of doing things, my mind has a certain way of processing and preparing before I can get any work done. I guess its like a nesting period before I can get work done. I had the same thing in university. I feel like I need to put myself on a better regime to promote efficiency and effectiveness. I'm such a planner, though sometimes that's all I do. I need to focus on action and not worry about having things be perfect all the time.

I need to get off my butt and focus on action