Well that was an interesting 48 hours, I have not had a moment to breathe since Tuesday evening and now it is Thursday night and I am a District Manager! I am so excited about making District, and to be honest I kind of bought my way there (just the last 800). I ended up putting in an order that was quite large but everything I got I really needed (and wanted). I am just so excited to be at the next level, making more commission and being in a better position to help my new consultant C, I am so excited for her to start this journey, it is a hard road and a lot of work but actually talking about the product and doing parties is so much fun I cannot wait to do this full time. I am of course talking about my new consultant business at Arbonne. I am so excited about C and her new business, I have seen her ability to sell and I am so excited to see what she can do in this environment.
When I first started this business I was scared of hearing no (I am still scared but trying to get over it) it's hard to put yourself out there and face a possible rejection. I was listening to one of the training audio's they give you and one of the women said if you hear a no, nothing has changed, it can't be bad because nothing has changed. It makes a lot of sense actually, its nice to think that if someone says no they are just not in the position to take advantage of the opportunity, some people just won't want to listen and that is fine. My face looks amazing and I love this job.
I'd also like to warm everyone that I had a little bit of celebration wine, for making District, so I am a little drunk and rambly (probably not a word but it makes the most sense here)
In my last post I was talking about my support system, I was writing about my boyfriend, friends, and family and how much support they have given me. I would like to say that I missed some people. My girls, the ones who introduced me to this business have been helping me so much, I literally called Q 8 times today and she was so supportive and loving. Greeting me with Hi Sweetie every time she answered, even though I know she has 2 sons and a husband and a whole other team to run. C is so nice and loving to me but Q is my real support, she is the one who gives me confidence and also a competitive spirit that I have never known. I look at her and want to beat her, I want to get to her level and have the success that she has. I want to be able to be Arbonne the way she is. It will come, I just want it more now. She was an amazing help today, working with me, just being there to confirm what I already knew but in such a supportive way. She is a real gem, and I want to get to her level. I actually like that fact that I make her money, because she deserves it.
I'm also enjoying my day job (the one I don't want but pays the bills) and I couldn't love my boyfriend more, my life is so good right now I'm scared that things are going to go horribly wrong. When I am this happy I always get scared bad things will happen. I try not to think things like this but my mind just goes there.
Either way I am so happy, so excited about my hard work and love of my new job.... just content
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Friday, June 24, 2011
Arbonne and Books
My first real Arbonne party is on Sunday, it is for one of my very best friends and as much as I am looking forward to it I am also scared. Not scared to talk about the product in front of people, not really scared of people not buying anything but I guess its just an overall nervousness of the unknown. I have never done this before, what if I forget something, what if I miss calculate an order, what do I do if someone asks me a question I don't know the answer too? I am also very concerned about people having a good time, it's supposed to be fun and I want it to be. I don't really want to voice these concerns out loud because I don't want reassurance from my support group, I just want to voice my fears so they are out of my head and not bothering me anymore.
I spent the night organizing my things, both work and home related. It makes me feel better to have my mind working on something else for a little while. I have made a very makeshift office in one corner of my apartment, trying to keep everything together and easily accessible. Being prepared makes things easier for me, and at times like these I think that I may have a touch of an anxiety disorder, maybe a little OCD. It doesn't really bother me though, things just seem to make more sense when they have a correct spot.
Now that my head is clearer, just saying (or in this case typing) what is going on in my head makes my anxiety so much easier to manage. It makes me able to breathe in a sense, instead of the build up of pressure that so often comes with something new for me.
Side note to happier things; I'm starting a new book tonight. I'm usually a hardcore fantasy reader (think Lord of the Rings, Wheel of Time that sort of thing) but I have been very frustrated lately because of all the series that I start don't have an ending. It is incredibly annoying to have 2 sets of books started and no conclusion because it hasn't been written yet. So after the last series that didn't end I wanted to branch out into another type of book. I just finished a murder mystery/love story type book and it was entertaining but I didn't really ever have the "can't put it down" feeling. I never got lost in the world because it was too much like my own. That's what I love about books, they take you to a place that shouldn't exist but it does and it shows you humanity will always be the same no matter what the context. It shows that no matter where a person is, who they are, or even if the world they live in is unfathomable, people are all the same. People worry and fear and love and laugh, they work and play and help bring other people into this world. No matter what world it is, people are always the same. I say this as a good thing, I like being able to relate to a character in a book. Everyone does, because everyone (well fantasy readers) want to believe that if they had to they could be a princess, or have magical powers, or save the world from evil. So I had a short vacation away from my fantasy books but I couldn't stay away any longer. It has been a while since I lost myself in a book. I am very much looking forward to it.
I spent the night organizing my things, both work and home related. It makes me feel better to have my mind working on something else for a little while. I have made a very makeshift office in one corner of my apartment, trying to keep everything together and easily accessible. Being prepared makes things easier for me, and at times like these I think that I may have a touch of an anxiety disorder, maybe a little OCD. It doesn't really bother me though, things just seem to make more sense when they have a correct spot.
Now that my head is clearer, just saying (or in this case typing) what is going on in my head makes my anxiety so much easier to manage. It makes me able to breathe in a sense, instead of the build up of pressure that so often comes with something new for me.
Side note to happier things; I'm starting a new book tonight. I'm usually a hardcore fantasy reader (think Lord of the Rings, Wheel of Time that sort of thing) but I have been very frustrated lately because of all the series that I start don't have an ending. It is incredibly annoying to have 2 sets of books started and no conclusion because it hasn't been written yet. So after the last series that didn't end I wanted to branch out into another type of book. I just finished a murder mystery/love story type book and it was entertaining but I didn't really ever have the "can't put it down" feeling. I never got lost in the world because it was too much like my own. That's what I love about books, they take you to a place that shouldn't exist but it does and it shows you humanity will always be the same no matter what the context. It shows that no matter where a person is, who they are, or even if the world they live in is unfathomable, people are all the same. People worry and fear and love and laugh, they work and play and help bring other people into this world. No matter what world it is, people are always the same. I say this as a good thing, I like being able to relate to a character in a book. Everyone does, because everyone (well fantasy readers) want to believe that if they had to they could be a princess, or have magical powers, or save the world from evil. So I had a short vacation away from my fantasy books but I couldn't stay away any longer. It has been a while since I lost myself in a book. I am very much looking forward to it.
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Grateful
A lot has been happening in my life in the last couple of months, I have been going, living and trying to survive without knowing what will happen when I finally stop. I think that things are going to keep progressing like this in my life for a while, starting a business is not something that slows down your life, and aside from that its summer, which is the season that always passes the quickest. During this time when I have been basically a chicken with its head cut off I have had amazing support, and for that I am grateful.
First of all my boyfriend, who asked all the right questions to help me convince myself that this business was what I wanted. He knew I wanted it before I did and still listened to me discuss the details over and over and over. He is a constant tester for all new products, he is my IT help, my business card designer and my lap to crawl into and cry when I get upset. I am so grateful he is here. He also feeds me, cooks all of the meals in the house, if I prepare supper its because I bring it home, I'm awesome at take out. I am grateful for all of his effort, and I love him.
I am also grateful for my friends, I started a business that has a lot to do with who you know, and your friends and family are the people who help you launch your business. My family is on the other side of the country, my friends have been amazing at supporting me, listening to my insecurities, talking constantly about products, meetings and my business. They take it all in and have only offered support in return. A lot of this business is dealing with disappointment, someone cancels, or a sale is missed or the simple fact that it may not be growing the way I wanted it to. My friends have been here as the never waver, never say no, never flake friends they are. Spending time with them always renews my spirit, makes it easier to pick up and start again the next day.
I worry about making deadlines, promotions, selling product, being an expert and most of all failure. I am grateful for the people in my life who make those worries smaller and less significant.
First of all my boyfriend, who asked all the right questions to help me convince myself that this business was what I wanted. He knew I wanted it before I did and still listened to me discuss the details over and over and over. He is a constant tester for all new products, he is my IT help, my business card designer and my lap to crawl into and cry when I get upset. I am so grateful he is here. He also feeds me, cooks all of the meals in the house, if I prepare supper its because I bring it home, I'm awesome at take out. I am grateful for all of his effort, and I love him.
I am also grateful for my friends, I started a business that has a lot to do with who you know, and your friends and family are the people who help you launch your business. My family is on the other side of the country, my friends have been amazing at supporting me, listening to my insecurities, talking constantly about products, meetings and my business. They take it all in and have only offered support in return. A lot of this business is dealing with disappointment, someone cancels, or a sale is missed or the simple fact that it may not be growing the way I wanted it to. My friends have been here as the never waver, never say no, never flake friends they are. Spending time with them always renews my spirit, makes it easier to pick up and start again the next day.
I worry about making deadlines, promotions, selling product, being an expert and most of all failure. I am grateful for the people in my life who make those worries smaller and less significant.
Monday, June 20, 2011
Always Listen to Instructions
I've been busy lately, busy and I haven't been blogging, which is strange. I can't decide if I don't have a lot to say or I'm too busy to have time to write it all down. I am enjoying being busy, but I'm missing my friends. I feel like we haven't had a good hang out in a while and I don't like that. It's starting to be too long between visits, but maybe that is just because I was sick last weekend so I didn't do anything at all social. I always feel out of the loop after being sick, like I missed a lot. I guess that's just because time moves so slowly when your sick you feel every minute.
I just put on one of my Arbonne products the cellular renewal masque and I think I left it a little too long. My face is bright red, and very hot. Hopefully it will not look like this in the morning. I know that is what it is supposed to do but I guess that's why you should always listen to instructions. The product is literally supposed to take off the layer of dead skin from your face. I'm trying to combat my acne scars, which I didn't know I had until I got rid of my pimples. It's weird not having pimples, they were such a large part of my life for a long time. I am so happy I don't have them anymore but I sure wish I listened to my mother who said don't pick your face your going to get scars.
Business meeting tomorrow at lunch and then wonderful friend time after work, I am so looking forward to it. Oh good my face is already not as hot, this is a good thing.
I just put on one of my Arbonne products the cellular renewal masque and I think I left it a little too long. My face is bright red, and very hot. Hopefully it will not look like this in the morning. I know that is what it is supposed to do but I guess that's why you should always listen to instructions. The product is literally supposed to take off the layer of dead skin from your face. I'm trying to combat my acne scars, which I didn't know I had until I got rid of my pimples. It's weird not having pimples, they were such a large part of my life for a long time. I am so happy I don't have them anymore but I sure wish I listened to my mother who said don't pick your face your going to get scars.
Business meeting tomorrow at lunch and then wonderful friend time after work, I am so looking forward to it. Oh good my face is already not as hot, this is a good thing.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Sick
I feel like crap, I think I may have the flu but you never know it may just be my broken body riddling me with pain because I had a couple of weeks without it. I am hot, but cold, hungry but full, my head, neck, back and stomach are aching and all I can think about it how I just started a new job and there is no way I can miss work tomorrow.
I hate feeling sick, I hate having people look at me and think I'm faking, or hungover or just lazy. I was so miserable at my desk this afternoon that I couldn't see straight. I did one thing, 3 different times before I got it right, and it was a simple thing.
I thought I had the energy to do this, I guess not, to bed for me.
I hate feeling sick, I hate having people look at me and think I'm faking, or hungover or just lazy. I was so miserable at my desk this afternoon that I couldn't see straight. I did one thing, 3 different times before I got it right, and it was a simple thing.
I thought I had the energy to do this, I guess not, to bed for me.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Update
I haven't written in a while because my life has been a whirlwind of activity lately. I will try and take a couple of minutes to update you on what has been going on, trying to remember what I was feeling in the moment and where my thought process was. I am not usually this busy. I am usually a do one thing at a time kind of person and have a lot of down time. If I was doing anything other than Arbonne I think I would have thrown in the towel by now but it continues to be a bright spot in my day, allowing me to adapt to my sudden busy lifestyle.
I had my first Arbonne party on Saturday; it was an amazing success, this is because of my wonderful, loving friends. They asked all the right questions during the presentation, bought a lot of product and were so supportive in both presence and words of encouragement. It was an amazing night, at the end of it when I was sitting by myself reflecting on the night all I could think was, is someone really going to pay me to do this? Now I know it won't be my friends all the time but meeting new people and sharing experiences is so rewarding that I am so looking forward to my own presentations.
Next in my busy week came my test, as you know I have chronic stomach problems that have been a part of my life since I was 6, more seriously since I was 18. This Monday I went to the hospital for a test, one I have had before but it does require some sedative so I was out of it for most of the day Monday. I have a follow-up appointment on Tuesday of next week to talk about what was found. This in itself is a battle for me, I long for the day that a doctor can tell me what I have, why I am in constant pain, why I am the way I am. Now that I'm pretty sure they have actually figured out a diagnosis I feel silly for wanting one. What kind of sick person wants to be told they are sick? I am back and forth on the subject so much. I've pretty much decided to ignore this until I see the doctor, its been pushed to the back of my mind because I have way happier things to think about.
My first Arbonne National meeting was on Tuesday, again one of my wonderful friends accompanied me lending her unwavering support. I was recognized as a new consultant and it sparked my competitive spirit to succeed in this business. It made me want to take action right away, but as I said this is a busy week so action has not been happening. Also on Tuesday I started a new job, it is so different than any other job that I have had, they take care of their employees, want us to be comfortable in our job. It's great so far. The job itself I feel I can do once I learn the ropes and I am confident I will be good at it.
Wednesday brought another day of training at the new job and then after work I ventured on to the airport to pick up a very old friend. My girlfriend from home is visiting and we have known each other since we were about 6, having her around is like having my family here. A warm welcome blanket to protect me from everything that is going on in my life. She is here until Sunday and I am so happy that she came to visit. Our trip will consist of lots of catching up and much needed time together.
Second Arbonne party is tonight, smaller crowd tonight but my trainer says I'm going to do part of the presentation so I'm excited, and nervous.
So that's it, that's why I basically haven't had a moment to breathe since I posted last Saturday. I am having a lot of fun but last night I had a slight organization freak out and feel like I should be doing more to build my business. That's where my head is, errands today with my girl and then party tonight!
I had my first Arbonne party on Saturday; it was an amazing success, this is because of my wonderful, loving friends. They asked all the right questions during the presentation, bought a lot of product and were so supportive in both presence and words of encouragement. It was an amazing night, at the end of it when I was sitting by myself reflecting on the night all I could think was, is someone really going to pay me to do this? Now I know it won't be my friends all the time but meeting new people and sharing experiences is so rewarding that I am so looking forward to my own presentations.
Next in my busy week came my test, as you know I have chronic stomach problems that have been a part of my life since I was 6, more seriously since I was 18. This Monday I went to the hospital for a test, one I have had before but it does require some sedative so I was out of it for most of the day Monday. I have a follow-up appointment on Tuesday of next week to talk about what was found. This in itself is a battle for me, I long for the day that a doctor can tell me what I have, why I am in constant pain, why I am the way I am. Now that I'm pretty sure they have actually figured out a diagnosis I feel silly for wanting one. What kind of sick person wants to be told they are sick? I am back and forth on the subject so much. I've pretty much decided to ignore this until I see the doctor, its been pushed to the back of my mind because I have way happier things to think about.
My first Arbonne National meeting was on Tuesday, again one of my wonderful friends accompanied me lending her unwavering support. I was recognized as a new consultant and it sparked my competitive spirit to succeed in this business. It made me want to take action right away, but as I said this is a busy week so action has not been happening. Also on Tuesday I started a new job, it is so different than any other job that I have had, they take care of their employees, want us to be comfortable in our job. It's great so far. The job itself I feel I can do once I learn the ropes and I am confident I will be good at it.
Wednesday brought another day of training at the new job and then after work I ventured on to the airport to pick up a very old friend. My girlfriend from home is visiting and we have known each other since we were about 6, having her around is like having my family here. A warm welcome blanket to protect me from everything that is going on in my life. She is here until Sunday and I am so happy that she came to visit. Our trip will consist of lots of catching up and much needed time together.
Second Arbonne party is tonight, smaller crowd tonight but my trainer says I'm going to do part of the presentation so I'm excited, and nervous.
So that's it, that's why I basically haven't had a moment to breathe since I posted last Saturday. I am having a lot of fun but last night I had a slight organization freak out and feel like I should be doing more to build my business. That's where my head is, errands today with my girl and then party tonight!
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Launch
I feel I should be posting today, tonight is my first Arbonne party and I feel I should say something about it. I guess I could let you all know about what is going on in my head like I usually do but today I just don't feel like it is interesting.
I am focused on getting everything ready for the party, going to get snacks, cleaning my apartment a little and probably watch the clock a lot. That's how I used to get ready for parties when I was a kid, spend all day preparing so that I wouldn't be rushed. It ended up with a lot of waiting around. I think the better idea might be pack your day with activities so that you don't drive yourself crazy with specifics. Really who am I kidding? I will think about it all day.
I am very excited about the party, not only to launch my business but I haven't had a girls night in a while. We will have a couple of drinks, snacks and do the girlie things girls do when there are no guys around. Probably gossip about boys.
That's all I have for today, I feel like I should have more anxiety, more thoughts, more nerves but I guess I already had one freak out for the week.
I am focused on getting everything ready for the party, going to get snacks, cleaning my apartment a little and probably watch the clock a lot. That's how I used to get ready for parties when I was a kid, spend all day preparing so that I wouldn't be rushed. It ended up with a lot of waiting around. I think the better idea might be pack your day with activities so that you don't drive yourself crazy with specifics. Really who am I kidding? I will think about it all day.
I am very excited about the party, not only to launch my business but I haven't had a girls night in a while. We will have a couple of drinks, snacks and do the girlie things girls do when there are no guys around. Probably gossip about boys.
That's all I have for today, I feel like I should have more anxiety, more thoughts, more nerves but I guess I already had one freak out for the week.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Action
I think that the mood swings that women go through are unfair. I was a mess last night, I made a mountain out of a mole hill. I freaked, and ended up crying, but the thoughts behind my freak out were true. They are also still there, the fear that I won't be good enough, that I will fail, that I won't be perfect. All of these things still go through my head, the chatter that has always been there is back with a vengeance.
I am constantly thinking about what I can do to make my business grow, making plans and trying to figure out how to make money and be successful in this business. I feel like I don't have the knowledge to do my job well enough yet, so I am just stuck in the planning stage. This feeling of being stuck makes my skin crawl, I like action.
Action will come, just a little more research first.
I am constantly thinking about what I can do to make my business grow, making plans and trying to figure out how to make money and be successful in this business. I feel like I don't have the knowledge to do my job well enough yet, so I am just stuck in the planning stage. This feeling of being stuck makes my skin crawl, I like action.
Action will come, just a little more research first.
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