Back to the drawing board

Today starts my third week of eating a vegan diet and I must say I'm pretty sick of it. I am experiencing wonderful things in the stomach department but I am not being very healthy about it. I truly don't like vegetables that much so if I don't go out of my way to make a meal I end up eating grains and meat substitutes which isn't much different from my old way of eating. The main reason I wanted to try this out was to lose weight, I was really excited about the unexpected stomach benefits but I haven't lost anything so I really am not reaching my goal. I'm sure if I ate only veggies I would be loosing weight but my love of bread has been dominating my diet for the last 2 weeks so I'm not loosing the way I thought I would.

I was discussing different eating habits with a friend last night and he brought up the 4 hour body, he had lost weight doing it and I thought I would look into it. I started reading it this morning and it is quite interesting. I'm not sure if I'm going to attempt it because I don't have all the facts but I will keep you updated.

I feel a little odd trying all of these "weight loss fads" because I truly still see myself as a skinny person. The truth is I have 25 extra pounds to lose and a wedding in less than a year so I should get my butt in gear. The book talks about a moment that you have to decide to do it, to finally go after what ever you have been thinking about doing. That is my issue, I can say I want to loose weight all day long but you put a plate of poutine in front of me and I'm going to eat it all. Also it wouldn't have to be just poutine, anything cheesy and delicious I'm in.

In other news, I had a job interview for a Rep position yesterday and I have another one tomorrow via Skype. I'm incredibly scared about having a full time job again but excited for a full time paycheck. I am going to prepare myself tomorrow morning and I really hope I get it but it puts a kink in my other job hunting plans. Should I keep applying for jobs? Should I just wait and see? Laziness tells me to wait, instinct tells me to not put all my eggs in one basket. Also if I end up getting a job at a restaurant do I want that more than a 9-5 job? If there is a possibility of working at the spa should I hold out for it? I have 3 places I think might hire me but no guarantees and no way of knowing when I will know.

100th Post!

Wow this is my 100th post, who knew I had so much to say? Probably everyone I know actually. My second week of being vegan is not going as well as last week. I'm really craving meat, cheese, everything that is delicious and bad for you. I know this is attributed to my PMS but it doesn't make it any easier. I have been eating a lot, not meat products, I have been sticking to my rules but eating too much for any sort of weight loss. I did go for a jog earlier this week and did some sit-ups but that is the extent of my exercise. So instead of filling my belly with veggies I have been filling it with crackers, chips, and bread

Enough complaining..

I'm hoping to get a call back from a new job tomorrow, I think they liked me in the interview I just hope they don't have a problem with me leaving for 12 days in like 2 weeks. I also went to an awesome irish pub today and chatted with the owner who was a sweet hart, I think she will hire me if this other place doesn't. She told me to follow up after June 1st so that is still a couple weeks away so that makes my purse strings tighter.

I am so ready to have control over my finances again, I want to be comfortable, be able to go to the mall and get some new clothes if I feel like it. I'm confident this will happen, good thoughts, good thoughts.

On a totally opposite note I'm trying to make tofu jerky tonight, wish me luck!

The Joy's of Womanhood

So I wrote the previous blog earlier today and along with my bad mood I couldn't stop eating all day and for the first time since starting the vegan diet had hard core cravings. I'm sitting in my living room this evening and all of a sudden it hits me, I'm going to start my period next week, damn you PMS and your steel like grip on my emotions, cravings and life in general.

I think the worse part is that even though I am 25 and have been experiencing this for 14 years now (yes I was an early bloomer) you would like I would recognize it better. But alas every month it is the same, I get cranky, then want to eat everything in sight and then have the big a- ha! moment, oh the joys of womanhood.

Just getting it out of my head

I'm feeling kind of disappointed in my new way of eating, I still like the food, love it actually and I am feeling good in the stomach department but I kind of assumed I would have lost more weight last week. I don't think I lost anything and it's frustrating. I know I'm looking for a quick fix, I know I should be working my butt off by exercising but I just want to feel good about the way I look. I know if I had enough money to by myself some new clothes I wouldn't be so obsessed with losing the extra weight I put on but since I have no money and extra weight I'm frustrated.

I have applied to a couple of different restaurants and haven't heard anything back from them, I will probably go today and apply for more because I am in dire need for some money. I have a good paycheck coming from Arbonne but not until next month and it will probably only pay my rent. I don't know if I should look for an office job a couple days a week, I'm scared I won't like it. I love my life right now, the only thing wrong with it is that I'm worried about money but other than that it's awesome. If only the restaurant I started working at wasn't awful and ended up bouncing cheques I could be still working there and be happy go lucky. I probably would have had my visa almost paid off by now if I had stayed. I wonder a lot if I made the right decision. Sanity wise yes, money wise maybe not.

I think more than anything I'm scared I'm becoming a burden on the people who love me, my parents loaned me money a while back, my fiancee pays for pretty much everything these days and I just don't like the way it makes me feel. I hope the restaurant I applied for on Monday works out for me. I hope a lot of things lately though.

Loving Eating Vegan

As you all know I am deciding to eat vegan for the next month. I always want to make it clear that I am eating vegan not becoming a vegan. I know that I will not be able to cut out meat completely and I will cheat every so often so I don't want to call myself a Vegan. I feel it will be too hypocritical to label myself a Vegan when I'm doing this for health reasons and not because I love animals, or the environment.

I am in love with my new eating habits! I feel amazing, my stomach hasn't hurt since I started, I haven't had any emergency bathroom trips, and the most amazing thing is I'm not as hungry as I thought I would be. Usually around 9, 10 or 11 I get hungry, the feeling of knowing I shouldn't eat but I want to more than being hungry. This feeling has been alluding me this week, it's awesome, the idea to eat is there but I am full or not craving as hard as I usually do. Either way I'm very happy about it, and because I eat mostly veggies I eat whenever I want.

I made a stew today; and I'm not a great cook I can bake but cooking has never been my strong point. The stew is so flavorful! Now the lentils aren't exactly fully cooked and the carrots are a little hard but the flavor is wonderful. I put it over rice and I couldn't finish it because I was full. That's another thing about eating vegan the full feeling isn't like your going to bust and feel awful it's like you are chalk full of goodness.

Now I'm not saying I haven't had struggles, we went to a friends house last night and M and D got pizza delivered and oh man it smelled good. But I took some crust and ate my rice, fortunately I had a bunch of veggies before I left so I was still full.

First vegan recipe a success, first 4 days a success, still very excited. :)

2nd Vegan Day

Today is my second day eating a vegan diet and I'm still excited about it. I felt really good at the end of the day yesterday and wasn't hungry around 11 like I usually am. Both of these things surprised me but it's given me a really good outlook on the new eating plan. I went to the grocery store today and got myself veggies, grains, fruits and some whole protein (quinoa). When I came home I made an amazing tasting shake with the Arbonne protein powder, fiber booster, flax seed, mixed berries and almond milk. I am really trying to concentrate on getting the correct vitamins and minerals in my diet, making sure I'm getting healthy fats and I'm not lacking anything.

I'm going to make some protein bars sometime this afternoon and this evening I am bar tending at an alumni event put on by my former university, it is a lobster boil and I won't be participating. That will be a little heart breaking but I will try to be strong.

On a side note we sent out our wedding invitations last night! The cruise is booked and this thing is really happening. I can't wait for sun, sand, poolside fun, oh it's going to be awesome!!

I'm going to give it a try

I made a random decision last night, one that had never crossed my mind but once it came to me it made a lot of sense. I decided for the next month I am going to eat a Vegan diet only. I came to this decision as I was watching one of my favorite vlogs, and usually she talks about stupid things, rants and other such topics but last night she was answering a viewer question about her diet. I was really shocked when she said she ate a vegan diet 6 out of 7 days of the week, I think I just never really took her seriously before. I always just thought of her as a funny girl to watch but she has a great body and I guess it makes sense that she works to keep it that way. What really caught my attention was she doesn't eat Vegan because of animals she does it because she feels physically better when she eats this way. As you all know I have always struggled with my stomach and even though I am now medication free my stomach has been bothering me a lot lately so I thought I would give it a try.

I did a little more research and saw that the first benefit of a Vegan diet is weight loss. This peaked my interested because I am getting married in a year and going wedding dress shopping in a month. I would like to look and feel good at my wedding, and in everyday life of course. So that is what sparked the idea and as hard as I think it will be I'm excited about the changes I hope to see and feel in my body. Hopefully I will use this blog as a place to vent my frustration since I am sure there will be a lot of it.