I'm feeling kind of disappointed in my new way of eating, I still like the food, love it actually and I am feeling good in the stomach department but I kind of assumed I would have lost more weight last week. I don't think I lost anything and it's frustrating. I know I'm looking for a quick fix, I know I should be working my butt off by exercising but I just want to feel good about the way I look. I know if I had enough money to by myself some new clothes I wouldn't be so obsessed with losing the extra weight I put on but since I have no money and extra weight I'm frustrated.
I have applied to a couple of different restaurants and haven't heard anything back from them, I will probably go today and apply for more because I am in dire need for some money. I have a good paycheck coming from Arbonne but not until next month and it will probably only pay my rent. I don't know if I should look for an office job a couple days a week, I'm scared I won't like it. I love my life right now, the only thing wrong with it is that I'm worried about money but other than that it's awesome. If only the restaurant I started working at wasn't awful and ended up bouncing cheques I could be still working there and be happy go lucky. I probably would have had my visa almost paid off by now if I had stayed. I wonder a lot if I made the right decision. Sanity wise yes, money wise maybe not.
I think more than anything I'm scared I'm becoming a burden on the people who love me, my parents loaned me money a while back, my fiancee pays for pretty much everything these days and I just don't like the way it makes me feel. I hope the restaurant I applied for on Monday works out for me. I hope a lot of things lately though.
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