New Look

I changed the look of the blog today, I really have no patience for things like that. I kind of go until I get a feeling and then stop. It usually only takes me a couple of minutes to make the decision. I know it is dark but I like the contrast of the words and the soft grey. I've always been drawn to grey, I think its because things stand out so much better against grey. It really is a beautiful color.

I spent the morning feeling sorry for myself, this always happens when I wake up in a bad mood. I just don't understand how I can be so disadvantaged right away to start the day. I have things to do and a life to lead. I want to want to do those things. So after venting to my beautiful confidant I kicked myself into gear, got in the shower and started my day. I did 2 follow ups for Arbonne, planted a few seeds that I hope will benefit my growing team in the future. It was not a lot of effort but I took the time to congratulate myself instead of looking for outside gratification like I usually do. (It's something I'm trying to work on) I have a couple of other calls to make tonight but I am happy I got off the couch.

So after I got home I started making wish lists, things that I wanted like new clothes, travel, financial goals (all material things because the love I have in my life is thankfully overflowing and amazing). Making lists seem to calm me down, I think to be able to see everything laid out in front of me, it makes the things I have to do in life not seem so stressful. It's like in a list I know exactly what has to be done, there is no mystery.

I want to go area by December in Arbonne and I know that only I am standing in my way. I need to work a little harder every day to make contacts and follow up with people. I have been doing such a good job so far keeping my days filled with activity and if I could just book one more party (making it 3 total for the rest of the month) I would be so happy. I am proud of the things I am accomplishing, not just in my activity but in my response to activity. I am taking no's a lot lighter that I used to and acknowledging that they are just a part of my business. I have not let my fire go out and I don't think it will.

I have a long way to go to reach my QV goal but it is so attainable I can taste it. I have a problem with making up scenarios in my head about my success and I think sometimes my imagination runs away with me. If the world could see the amazing business I am building in my head everyone would want to join.