Reflection of a Year

New Years Eve is a special day, a day to think about all that you have done, all you can possibly do in the year to come. When I think back on the things that have happened in this year they sort of stun me. I have changed my life so drastically from what it was. I have been scared, lost, frustrated, sad, on the edge of what seemed like the the end of the world, I was also excited, proud, happy, in love. During this year I lost myself, found a new self, found passion, desire, love, new life, new expectations, confidence, found an outlet to change the world. Most importantly I found my voice, not the negative voice that I have been listening to for years, I found the confident voice, that tells me I'm doing the right thing, that tells me to keep going, that picks me up, that allows me to be me.

I started this year in a job that I loved, it made me crazy sometimes but what we did there was close to my heart so I did it. After being turned down by management for yet another promotion I had enough, I couldn't stay with a company that didn't appreciate my talents. I started looking for a new job and was offered one that sounded amazing. As I left my comfort zone, saying goodbye to seeing all of my best friends on a daily basis and went towards what I thought was my new career. In about two weeks I knew I wouldn't be able to do this new job. I felt like they had tricked me, it was nothing like I thought it would be. I was bored most of the day and was feeling bad about myself because of the atmosphere at the job.

This is where my voice came out for the first time, I knew I couldn't stay in this job, I said I was quitting and even though my family told me I shouldn't I knew I couldn't stay. I was prepared to be unemployed before going back. I was introduced to Arbonne during this time and after carefully considering I took the plunge.

As I started at another job and tried to juggle both I became more and more stressed. I was dreading going to work, stressed about my Arbonne business and not having the balance I needed. In August I broke, mentally I was done, I was put on medication and medical leave from work and spent a month doing nothing, hiding from the world. This was a scary time in my life, I couldn't see past it, I thought that this was it, that I was going to be broken for the rest of my life. I was defeated.

Insert my support system; my friends, my family, my new Arbonne family, they picked me up, they supported me, they dealt with me sitting on the couch, crying for no reason, being broken. They reminded me of the person I am, reminded me I am strong, that I can get through it. That my dreams will be hard to achieve but I could do it. I owe so much to them allowing me to find my path, though it is and will continue to be hard with them behind me I feel safe.

Now I am concentrating on building a business I feel so strongly about, I feel I can change the world with it. I just got engaged and am so excited to see what challenges that brings, I am proud of myself and the growth I achieved this year. I am excited to see 2012 and what it offers.