Compassion

As I start this month, now 4 days in, I am overwhelmed with the amount I need to do in my business. My wonderful team has decided to take this month slowly, which is the amazing part of this business! If you want to take a break you can take a break. So amazing for them but puts a little more pressure on me to complete Area this month. Now I want to complete this month, I don't want to have to push myself this hard again next month with the constant goal hanging over my head (which I love and hate). However it is December, so I basically have half the month that I usually do, and my team is taking the month off and no one will call me back!

This is what I would like to write about, compassion from people in the world. No one will call me back, I understand that people are busy and life is complicated but the thought that you can't call another human being for long enough to say I'm sorry but I'm not interested in hosting a get together for you is sort of ridiculous.

I'm feeling really down tonight, just because I want to share this amazing gift with others (I mean being healthy and also the awesome business) but I understand it's not for everyone so when you say no I'm okay with it. Just say no, call me back and let me know. The funny thing is once a person calls another person back they realize hey this person is asking me to be a part of their life, then its too hard to say no.

Is that so bad? I sell lipstick and rouge yes, but I also sell my ability to live my life in the way I choose and without selling lipstick and rouge I have to go back to a regular day job. I don't want that, I also don't want to have to ask my parents for money, or make my boyfriend support me. I'm just feeling sad at the fact that people won't even take the time out of their day to call me back and I'm fighting to pay my rent.

Yes I can be dramatic but it is also true and I'm mad so I'm complaining.

I just want to be able to live my life the way I want to, I just want someone else to say yes I will invite 3 of my friends over and you can talk for 30 minutes and let us play with products, that's all I want.

Lastly I apologize for my awful grammar, I'm too annoyed to edit tonight.