As I have stated before I am trying to find a world where I am focased on wants and needs as opposed to Shoulds; the notion of only doing what you want in life seems so simple but is so undeniably hard.
This seems likes such a simple concept, doing only what I want or need and I have the drive, have the initial push to do this but what stops me is Chatter. When I am thinking about doing something my mind races, pushing me to think about my choices with such depth that by the end of the investigation into why I am doing it and all the other things I need to do I end up doing nothing. Now that sounds ridiculous, what type of grown woman can't go to yoga when she wants to? Well the yoga class will take an hour, and getting there will take a good 15 minutes on either side, plus getting ready so overall 2 hours, and I want to make sure that I have a good 2 hours before I go to bed to relax (because yoga is??) and then what about making supper, and I should probably clean the house a bit, yes I will clean the house instead. That wonderful idea that would have given my body and mind a well deserved rest gets pushed out the window, and I end up reading my book all night.
Seems crazy? Yes I agree, and with all the talk about chatter in my head I would like to put a disclaimer up that I am not crazy, it is only my voice rambling in my head, not anyone else's.
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