vulnerable

It's been an interesting couple of days, I have been doing a self improvement seminar online and I a actually used the tactics on a business builder this week and it worked! I met her, followed up, gave her a opportunity gift, had a business meeting and now have launch parties booked. Yay, double yay,  still have 4 other potential business partners and even if half of these leads work out I will be so far ahead of where I was it will be amazing. Even with just my new partner I am so far ahead, I just hope it works out.

Along with the interesting couple of days I have been living like I have money. Like I have no worries in the world and that I am a rich person. It's hard to do this business without being an impressive person, pretending that money doesn't matter and that everything is awesome. I love being that person but it takes a lot out of me. Eventually I want to step back and just be okay with being mediocre, it takes so much work to have it together all the time. I think that is what your support system is for, for being with you when you want to or need to be vulnerable.

Being vulnerable is the hardest part of being a person, opening yourself completely, letting everyone around you know that you don't have it all together. This had been one of the hardest parts of my journey being okay with not being okay. I never wanted people to know that I wasn't perfect, I always felt like I needed to put on a face so people wouldn't know how panicked I really was. I'm better at that, getting better at being not perfect at letting people know when I need a break. Arbonne is the one place I still struggle with not being perfect, maybe when I have all the time and money in the world I will be okay with it.

I am tired today, and glad to share it.