Low

As I posted last night I had an awful shift at the restaurant where I am employed, it made me just so sad. I basically cried myself to sleep and woke up today completely not over it. Along with feeling sadness about my shift I am equally, if not more; upset about the fact that it has effected me so much. I don't know why I am so effected by this, by a job that was supposed to be a way to help me get more contacts, supposed to be fun, not stressful. It's like I have such little self esteem and anything can come along and blow lightly at me and it shatters. I left work so fast, terrified that I would start crying. Why do I have such an ability to cry over anything? I shouldn't be worried about my stupid restaurant job, I have a great life.

It may be a culmination of things, I had a couple of business builders not work out this week and as hard as I have been working I have no sales. I don't think I will get a paycheck from Arbonne for this month and truthfully I'm beginning to wonder if I can even make it work. I'm having a low day, I'm going to quit tonight and deal with the consequences.