Rambling

I haven't posted in a while, not since I got drunk and spilled my heart out to a girl I knew in high school because of a sentimental picture on facebook. After my last post I sent it to the girl I was talking about and have now started a shaky dialogue with her about how things used to be and why things are the way they are now.

I guess I haven't had a lot to say, I tried writing my book for a while but I am not so good at putting my ideas onto paper. I have a grand idea, a concept that I think will be amazing but to actually form characters, plots, and the rise and fall of events is really hard. I have a lot of respect for writers and their ability to put themselves in their work.

I got a new job, am working towards getting my finances in control but I was sick this week. I spent 3 days doing nothing at all and now I have a sense of need to do. I feel like I have just been wasting my life and that I need it to have purpose again. It's funny how 3 days can change things, I hate waiting, and want things to get back on track so much faster than they are.