This weekend was my very first training conference for Arbonne, it started Friday morning and when I woke up early to shower and get ready I was greeted by a stomach ache, of course. I was nauseated but very excited about the conference so I pushed the feeling to the back of my mind and kept going.
When I arrived at the conference I was overwhelmed by the number of women; 1800 in total, milling around waiting for the doors to open to rush to a good seat. I registered alone because G (formerly known as Q) and the others were running late, but while waiting in line I met this wonderful woman from Ontario. She helped me through the process seeing that I looked a little lost and then offered to hang out with me until I found the women I was looking for. The kindness she showed was amazing and warmed my heart instantly. After meeting up with everyone and rushing to our seats the conference started off with a talk on leadership, given my this beautiful 28 year old woman who I late found out is one of the top earners in Canada. How I wanted that, I wanted to be able to provide for myself and love my life the way these woman and men do. I was burning with passion by lunch. I felt on fire with desire and the fact that they were giving me the secrets to their success was amazing.
This is when I realized that in a world where employee loyalty means nothing, and employers think they can replace an employee faster than work on their skills and give them a chance. In a world where employers will not give you a promotion because they like where you are better I have found a company that believes in me. The people above me want me to do well. They want me to achieve my dreams because they want to share what they have. They refer to it as the gift of Arbonne, a gift of being able to deliver someone's dreams to them, all you need is to be willing to work. Activity every day that's all that is needed.
I came home Friday on fire and slept through the night for the first time in about 3 months, when I woke up I couldn't believe it! I got up way earlier than I had to and proceeded to dance around my apartment while I got ready. I was ecstatic to go back to the conference and soak up all of the secrets and strategies.
The day was just as great as the last though by the end my brain kind of felt like mush, having not been used in the last month and then used with vigor for 2 solid days.
Sunday came and with it another day of training, I met my new consultant and I am so excited for her, I cannot wait to see her dreams come true. I cannot wait to be there for her like G is there for me.
Now it is Tuesday, and Monday was very successful, I booked a party and have a great start to my month. However; Tuesday has brought thoughts of doubt and loneliness, I realize that no matter what I have in my life I still have depression. It's not going to go away easily and as much as I want to be better I'm not going to be for a while. I have to take it at face value and not let it effect me for too long. Leaning hard on my beautiful new roommate I have been picked up and dusted off. Told to think of my well being first and all things after.
I still worry, my mind still races around thinking of all the things I should be doing. Nothing can force me, at the conference a woman told a story about motivation. The end moral was no one can motivate you but you. I see great wisdom in this and know that when it counts I will do what I have to do.
I took many things from this weekend, a renewed sense of purpose, a rekindled passion for success in reaching my own goals, a small view of the person I hope to be one day and a direction towards all of these things.
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