No Sleep for Me

I can't sleep, and when I can't sleep I get mad because I will be super tired at work tomorrow and probably feel sick and my whole day will be ruined. This thought alone keeps me awake worrying about my ruined day when really if I just fell asleep everything would be fine.

I have so much on my mind, I'm excited about jump starting my business this weekend at the heritage festival, meeting new people and working on talking to strangers about Arbonne instead of my friends. I have a party booked for late August, a drop out and an order pending. I can't stop thinking about the people  in my life who I think would be perfect for this job. I want to be able to share this experience with someone and truthfully I want to start making more money.

I can see this opportunity working for so many people in so many ways. It just makes sense in my mind I want to talk about it all the time. I'm trying not to annoy my friends too much with it but I believe in it so much. I want people to love it as much as I do.

I signed up for the training session in September today and realized its on a Thursday, Friday and Saturday so I guess I'm going to be asking for that time off of at work tomorrow. My work may turn a little crazy in the next month or so because my boss is leaving. She is finding it too hard to raise her child at the same time as working so she is leaving the company. I feel this will add stress to my job so if I'm not thinking about Arbonne I'm thinking about that.

Along with my own thoughts crowding my head, my boyfriend has started writing a book. I am so excited to see him excited about something and the story is just incredible. I can't wait to see the story grow, develop and am so happy that he has found something that gives him that smile he's been missing. I am just blown away by the concepts that come out of his mind and love that he values my opinion to help his creative process.

So many things, so much to do and I sometimes want to run and hide from everything. I find Arbonne stressful because I don't have any real goals yet (other than have it be a full time career). I am scared to make goals because I am scared to fail. I am currently judging my success based on their goals which is not good. I need to find a balance of doing Arbonne and not feeling guilty when I take a break. My overall, super broad goal of course is happiness. Do what makes me happy, even staying up and having some alone time makes me happy (though I fear I will pay for it tomorrow).

When I went to the Arbonne training they got us to write down our passion, to form our vision of why we do this, why Arbonne. I could come up with so many things but it really came down to me deciding my fate. Me deciding what I was going to do and when, not having to listen to anyone else. (I guess the boys in university who didn't like authority kind of rubbed off on me.)

My sister got me a picture for Christmas that says "Live what you Love", a couple of months ago I had no idea what I loved. I have a better idea now and I think Arbonne is one of those things. I need (want) to nurture it and make it grow to keep it in my life.

So many random thoughts swimming around in my head, no wonder I can't sleep, welcome to the chatter everyone. Hope you enjoyed.