I have been feeling very uneasy lately. I feel a little lost in my new situation, I have given my notice at work and now officially have a little less than 2 weeks left at the only job I have ever known. Now I have to go to work everyday knowing that I am not going to be there past next Friday. It makes motivation hard, makes going the extra distance hard to even wanting to do my best is hard. It's a strange situation for me to be in, mainly because I have never done anything in my life without doing it to the best of my ability and now my motivation is gone.
It's strange to have this non motivation and at the same time thinking and rethinking my decision about my new job. I feel that I should just be allowed to start my new job right now, it would stop this strange lost feeling I have, its like I need the new job for my self image to be complete.
In a rare moment of confidence today at work I told my co-workers about my blog. I hadn't been telling them before because I was so concerned about them knowing the real me. It's scary to allow the people in your life to see your soul. That's what this whole blogging situation is about, letting people know the true you. But I do have to agree that Blogging it Out as my wonderful friends have deemed it makes life a little bit easier for me, it may be an interest I have discovered all on my own.
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